i don't know if this will work. right now the web form is displaying all screwy. i dunno why- i've used blogger b4 on a Sun using Netscape 4 or whatever.

anyways, i just needed a little breath of air. i'm working on my 470 homework and to be quite honest, i doint really expect to go home tonite. i think this may call for an all-nighter. i don't know what i'll do if the time comes and i am too tired to drive home but i'm too tired to get anything done also.

well i'm trying to DESTRESS so why am i talking about that? enh. there's nothing i can talk about that would make me feel better. well, nothing that i would want anyone to see.

i'm listening to Dido in an attempt to relax. on the bright side, i think the forwarding works for at least some instructions. well, i know it does. it's just that for some reason now my loads and/or stores are screwed up. the code i added shouldn't have screwed that up.

i feel kind of sick to my stomach and i haven't really eaten a lot these past few days. there has been only one bright spot in my last 3 days and that's what i'm NOT going to talk about.

heh heh but i am smiling now so i guess this little exercise has done me SOME good, right? i feel bad because colette is coming to the study tonite but i won't be there. i miss her so much. i guess i probably saw her like a few weeks ago or something, but it feels like 4ever. actually, come to tghink of it it feels like forever since i started doing this homework problem. i think i'm a different person than i was when i started.

writing always seems to help me feel better. i just hope this stupid weblog actually WORKS. but even if it doesn't, i still think writing in here has helped me to feel a little better.
til next time.

ok, so i'm sitting at the MU right now thinking I should be working on 470. but it's hard to get started, because they gave us all these scripts and crap but when i tried to run them before, nothing happened. i did what the one guy said on the newsgruop but it didn't do what it was supposed to.

i just had a conversation w/ somebody that i was pretty good friends w/ last year. but now i realize that we never really had a friendship at all. it was all just an illusion. so i basically have a bitter taste in my mouth and i just feel icky. really, i don't know why i let things get to me so much. i have noticed for a long time that i have really high expectations, especially when it comes to people. i keep telling myself i should lower my expectations, but i never do. he said i need to be more patient. well, maybe it's true to some extent. but it doesn't change the fact that i'm bitterly disappointed.

i know later it will fade and not be such a big deal. but the fact is i really care about this person and it's hard for me to believe that i was so wrong about everything. i am just a stupid girl.

i'll get over it. i guess. i'll probaly make the same mistake later.

well, it's like 11 or something, and i'm sitting in my room Thursday night listening to Dashboard Confessional burning like 5 candles or something. Man, I wish Beck was here. she would appreciate this. i really miss her. it seems like i haven't talked to her in ages. i've tried to call her a coupla times but haven't been able to get ahold of her. but that's no excuse.

there is a reason why i'm being pathetic right now, but i don't feel like going into it. i don't know if i'll ever feel like going into it. well, if anyone was out there reading this, i'm sure somebody would probably pick up on the reason. it's not particularly hard to guess. enh.. ack bllghgh. this weekend is gonnna suck.

NO. i'm deciding, here and now, that this weekend is NOT going to suck. it will do nohting of the sort. so what if certain people... are going to be far away. no, i'm stopping now. i know this entry is getting all incoherent but i really don't care. but one thing i can say, this weekend is NOT going to suck. i'm going to have fun. and i'm going to finally get some of my crazy 470 homework done. i talked to mike chu today (who was my GSI for 370) and he said this homework we are getting now is the hardest one. which is a relief, because i looked at it all, and i didn't really know what most of the questions were talking about. which is kind of a bad sign. i've been drinking pop in that class to stay awake. there is no way for me to stay awake in that class without caffiene. and it's not even boring, or anytyihg.

ok, i'm done. if i keep things up i'll tell EVERYTHIKNG.