i've often made us of the cliche that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." in fact, last semester it became something of a mantra as i struggled through 470. however, i've realized of late that this expression is really only true in a long-term sense. in retrospect, it seems obvious, yet it came as something of a revelation when i realized that struggles that take an immense toll have a serious weakening effect in the short-term. much like weight lifting actually tears muscles, and its during periods of rest that the actual growth and muscle building occurs, i'm starting to think that it's in the periods of relative ease and recovery that true character development and healing occurs. and that's what makes you stronger.

i'm a stupid, stupid girl.