ok, so i basically have no real reason to write in this thing. it's just my writing compulsion, acting up again. there was something i wanted to say earlier, but now i forgot. one of these days i'm going to put a link to this blog on my web page. oh yeah, that reminds me, i have a domain name now. it's http:\\la-dee-dah.com. all the ones i really wanted were already taken. I am thinking of registering LauraMcWilliams.com, too, before some name-stealer snatches it up. it might be nice to have a professional sounding web address when i graduate.

i'm hoping that this web design class will motivate me and give me the knowledge needed to completely revamp my web page. because it's seriously pretty lame. ah well, all in due time. so far, this semester is going pretty well. i like having only 12 credits. I am supposed to start working for this one professor, but his colleague still hasn't emailed me to tell me when we can meet up and they can get me started and what-not. so i'm kind of enh about that.

ok, well i guess that's enough rambling for now. 'til next time.

well, hunh. i have no particular reason for wanting to write in this thing today, but i just felt like it. i would like to share the fact that Lucida Console is my favorite font. Hopefully that's the font that is showing up right now. There is another cool font called Interdimensional but i don't think it's installed on most people's machines, unfortunately.


I really should redo my web page. I can't work on 470 homework right now, because i do'nt have my book w/ me. there is a reason, but i don't feel like explaining. there is a reason for almost everything, but i seldom feel like explaining it.


Truth be told, for some time i've had this odd premonition that i woudln't live past 21. But, here i am, and i'm already half-way thru the ripe old age of 21 years. So, i guess i can look at it 2 ways- either i'm almost home-free or i haven't got much time left. haha this is probably not the type of thing most people would consider funny. but it amuses me, nonetheless. no, seriously i haven't had that feeling in a long time. really. i plan on living for quite some time longer. actually, i don't plan on ever dying.


I'm really not a morbid person. i don't know what made me bring it up. it's just something that occurred to me this morning. because i hadn't thought of the odd premonition i used to have for a long time. in fact, when i turned 21, the thought didn't even cross my mind. i had completely forgotten about it.


I think i'm going to put some poems up here. actually, i wrote a poem in spanish the other day that i think i'll post. (haha nobody reading this is gonna know spanish, so i guess i'm safe, eh?) here goes nothing:

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Poema de Amor

(written in EECS 470 Notebook, Sept 11, 2002)



el amor de mi vida no sabe que yo existo
el amor de mi vida es mas lejos que la luna
sin embargo, su cuerpo es tan cerca, como la esperanza dentro de mi corazon
el amor de mi vida, su alma vive en el rio
-el rio que fluga por la plena de mi cuerpo
sus ojos son claros con la luz de la vida
cuanda se veo, mi cabeza nada en el ocio de su voz
el amor de mi vida, estoy mirando a el siempre
pero todos los dias es como si no viva aqui
nunca me ha veido, nunca me ha querido
cado dia, cada noche me muro un poco mas


el amor de mi vida, no sabe que yo existo

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don't even BOTHER trying to figure it out. and DON"T ASK.

well i'm sitting here in Tech Comm class feeling extremely bored. since i'm learning some html, i guess i oughta start using some tags in here, eh?
i really don't know that much about it, though, i so guess it will be beneficial.

let's make a list:

1

List element

2

Another list element

Well, i'll see how that turns out.

i am so dying of boredom right now. ya know, i don't particularly care for the style of this weblog. i'm gonna see what i can do to change it. also, the title majorly needs to change. it was just all i could think of, at the time. further, i wanted to get the word "musings" in there.

so tomorrow's my last day at work. i like my job a lot, but i'm kind of ready to move on. i'm ready to go back to school, but at the same time i'm kind of feeling the old sense of dread as well. you just never know how it's gonna be. i'm feeling really optimistic, though. i'm supposed to be starting this new job for a professor who i had for Operating Systems. that was a great class. i'm kind of intimidated, because i'm sure all the kids on his team are super-smart. i will most likely look like a total doof. of course, that won't be a first for me, so i'm sure i can deal w/ that. i just hope i don't tick people off too much because of not knowing stuff. i don't care if they think i'm stupid or something i just hope they realize i'm capable of learning. i want to learn all this stuff.

there was something else... hmm what was it? ah well. i'll doubtless tell a lot more about school and what not in days to come. oh yeah i'm just wondering how personal i should get in this weblog. i have a feeling most of the people mentioned in here will probably never read it, but nevertheless i didn't want to do a private thing. so i have to be careful. i am thinking it would be nice to use a weblog for my journal, but at the same time i kind of like curling up w/ an actual paper book to write stuff down when i need to vent and what not. so.. i don't know... i'll think about it, i guess.

ok, well this has been a boring installment.

Ok, so i've moved it onto the free web space. I'll try to figure out later why the blogger program couldn't log onto my ftp server. oh well. ftp is insecure anyways.

blah blah blah

This is a test post. I decided to start my own blog. I intend to use it as an on-line journal. maybe i'll put poems and stuff up here. We'll see how it turns out. I don't like that it makes you use FTP. I wish it used SCP instead. Ok, well, let's see if this works.

ack! the ftp server isn't accepting my login, for some reason...